In Memory Of

Dean's wife lost her battle with cancer Friday Nov 28.  She was just 39, which is way too young.  She fought for two long months in palliative care.  Her body fought even after she was ready for the end, that's how much of a fighter she was.  She was up against the most aggressive strain of pancreatic cancer.  A brutal killer cancer, that she lasted a full year fighting against.  But it was time for her not be in pain.  Although he's had months to grieve, the real sadness really only begins for Dean now.  He's got two girls that are going to grow up without their mother.  Our office closed on Wednesday and we all drove up to Orangeville for the memorial service.  They had a slide show of her life, from elementary school all the way through their early years, the marriage, and the family trips.  I felt like I got to know her a little bit.  She used to call into the office all the time, and if Dean didn't pick up in two rings I'd grab it and page him in the back.  It wasn't much, but combined with all of Dean's stories I felt like I knew her at least a little bit.

I was worried that I wouldn't be able to contain myself.  I usually have uncontrollable crying fits at funerals.  Fits that end in hyperventilating.  There were a lot of tears, but I kept it civilized.  I almost couldn't talk when I went up to talk to Dean.  What do you even say.  You're not so much sorry for his loss as you're so enraged with life that you just want to take a giant shit on it.  But you can't say that.

And now just last week Jeff's dad was diagnosed.  It's becoming an epidemic.  We need to reevaluate our life decisions because it would appear something is happening.  It might just be me and Ross at work for the next while.  It's becoming rather stressful.

Last little piece of news.  I'm starting another 10 days of fruits and veg tomorrow.  I kind of didn't keep up any of the good habits after the last cycle ended.  I kind of went a little bit overboard trying to eat up food from my fridge and freezer that were bugging me.  I still have a ton of meat that needs consumption.  About half of the meals didn't really please my palate so I'll be switching things up a bit.  On top of cutting out the cucs, raw carrot soup is out, and squash apple soup.  Which sounds really yummy but wasn't quite so much.  I also want to try a few of the recipes from the book that didn't make it into my rotation.  I gained a bit of that weight back, so time to get it off again!  Come on now.